Life is hard right now.
I need to write ABOUT IT.
Having two jobs is stressing me out and I just want to start serving at ram’s horn…
Not having money sucks big time and I realize now more than ever how goddamn lucky I was in high school only working weekends and only worrying about my dumb dramatic teen life.
at least I move out in about a week and I will have MY OWN PLACE, MY OWN ROOM and a washer and dryer that doesn’t flood….let me go on
a squirrel free apartment…dead squirrel at that!
a skunk free zone
a basement, or lack thereof, that doesn’t flood
a roof that doesn’t leak
a shower that doesn’t smell like eggs
a place all to my self that isn’t filled with 5 cars and a house full of people when I get home from a 10 hour shift at 1 am.
Let me keep venting because this is feeling good.
I’m over school.
plain and simple.
my inspiration is everywhere else, and my motivation is that tiny string that keeps me holding on-knowing that I’m getting closer to graduating and becoming a professional dancer everyday. EVERYDAY TAYLOR.
shirin comes home very soon and I can’t wait to squeeze her!
being away from your best friend for over 6 months should seriously be illegal.
Drew and I broke up for 2 days and I was miserable, haha how pathetic is that!?
I miss the hell outta my family and really wish I could be up north with them right now.
I haven’t seen my little niece in way too long and I’m sure my nephews are taller than me right now.
But everyone’s busy and life is life and work is work.
I still wonder everyday why I am doing what I’m doing, why can’t I just be free and poor and spend time with the people I love forever until it’s our time to leave this earth. I just don’t understand life right now.
what I do know is that I have people who love me and it hurts them to see me this stressed out all the time, if there’s one thing I could change it would be that.
Those everyday people who you work with, go to class with,live with, do whatever with are just not cutting it these days, stop beating around the bush and ask someone what’s really going on in their life! and sincerely care for an answer. Have a fucking real conversation.
Okay I’m done.
